As I write this Greta is on her way to photograph Obama.

Imagine !

She will be there when Air Force One lands, when he speaks, oh my gosh. That makes me so incredibly excited and proud and happy..way happy.

This girl of mine (ours really)..She amazes me and when I am with her I have to refrain from just watching her. I wonder how I could have even had any part in this creation. And now she is on her own and taking this world on in a big way.

It is like our garden..we worked so hard this spring preparing the soil, building boxes and planting the seeds. Then watering, weeding and suddenly it seems it exploded full of life. We have beets, beans, tomatoes and my favorite are the cosmos and sunflowers. Now we just harvest. Now there is not much to do now but just watch and harvest.

So this is my time in life. I just sit and watch. (and occasionally butt in) She is grown, on her own and making her own decisions. Ah, this liife.

Today I imagine her there, the plane landing and her shooting her camera, kneeling down and

getting the best shot. I can't wait to hear what happens.

Honestly...I just can't wait.

Goldfinches

I am blissfully alone for a week, unable to go camping with our friends and my husband. (migraine monster) I decided to create my own retreat and have spent many hours in my back yard listening to the water flow down the hill and just watching. I've noticed the hummingbirds, and a cute lizard which hangs out on the rocks by the water. The birds are back at my feeders and this morning I noticed a goldfinch.

Ahh..Mary Oliver..sweet Mary Oliver who feeds my spirit. She too noticed the Goldfinches and has a poem entitled "Goldfinches". I love this part:

every year

and every year

the hatchlings wake in the swaying branches,

in the silver baskets,

and love the world.

Is is necessary to say more?

Have you heard them singing in the wind, above the final fields?

Have you ever been so happy in your life?

This summer I discovered just how hard it is to love the world and be happy when you are struggling with pain and searching for hope. To be happy like those goldfinches, or even that lizard or the hummingbirds, now that would be cool.

Migraines make you desperate. So desperate that you will try anything. And so I finally tried an anti-seizure medication for a month. It make me crazy and miserable, hopeless, depressed, dizzy and get this, gave me headaches! Those pills are now in the trash. I feel like I am in recovery now..still struggling with dizziness. But..my hope has returned just like the birds.

I have noticed t hat even the hummingbirds at my feeder rest. When it gets hot the birds and lizard retreat to a cool spot. There is a lesson there.

Pearl Buck got it right when she said" "Many people lose the small joys in the hope for the big happiness."

Today I am content and grateful for tall the small joys in my life.